No Regrets

Apologies for the length of time since the last thrilling instalment of my life, but I have been fairly busy since Sunday night. Pub, zombies, general slaughter, camping and pillaging has taken up nearly all of my time. And as all of that has happened, there hasn't been THAT much time for me to think about anything and so I haven't a lot of thoughts to spill out onto this page. I am incredibly envious of the friendship that two of my friends have with each other, they are incredibly lucky, and I know they appreciate that. Wish I had a friend I could rely on anything for. Instead I tend to deal mostly by myself, or through this, which is again, to myself really.

As I tried to explain to a friend last night (around a campfire, we are the coolest of kids), I am fairly optimistic for the future, in the sense that I think eventually I will work my life out, what I want to do, who I want to be and those sorts of things. Despite that, I am consumed with worry over the fact that maybe, just very maybe, I have spoilt my shot at that, even now that I get thoughts worrying that maybe I didn't try hard enough, and I just gave up on what should have been something. Seems he does the same really, he wants to think the best is yet to come, but worries it's gone.

One of the worst aspects of single life, is not having an interest at all in a girl at any point in time. I mean, right now for example, I am not 'after' anybody. The only person I have met in the past 5 or so months, in fact it's 5 months tomorrow, that I had any attraction to poo-pooed that idea, and since her I haven't met anybody at all that I have an interest in. And whilst I am actually quite content being single at the moment, I still dislike being 100% disconnected from that world.

After only having a few hours sleep the last couple of nights I am very tired, and I am hoping that being back in a real bed will spur real sleep. A full, proper nights sleep would be wonderful.
I think I might pop into town tomorrow afternoon as well, just for a mooch. Take a book, a little bit of money and have a wander. I could probably do with getting a tent, as hopefully we will do the camping thing again.

Right now, I think it is time for One Tree Hill watching, and setting the COD4:MW map pack to re-download since I've been on there again recently. I hope there will be a combi-pack to download all the COD:WAW packs as well, instead of having to spend 3 x £8 to buy them individually.

I am sure it won't be long until I'm back with a big, long, rambling, self-absorbed and very annoying blog. See you on the other side.

Samuel

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