Fuck All To Do (And All Day to Do It)

I wonder if someone one day will be able to explain what's going on in my head. I hate this fluctuation from happy to sad. It's just constant. I settle on one for an hour or two and flap back to the other straight from there. It wouldn't be such a problem if the lows weren't so extreme but they are. I just want 'an out'. I want to escape everything and fuck everything and forget everything, just for a while. I hate being unable to find work, and I hate having no money and I hate having no one in my life.

Fuck it all with force.

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All I Want For Christmas Is You

Why why WHY are the only interesting women in my life over 100 miles from my door? There is one, I met in June (refer to previous post) who is quite possibly the most beautiful person to have walked the Earth and seems like a really sweet and funny girl, but I have no idea really what she thinks of me + it'd be weird to just say something and I don't get to speak to her often, which I wish I could change.

In other news, I have sent Luisa a birthday/Christmas gift which I really want to tell her about but I don't want to spoil it. Ifg she sees it here she deserves to know. I hope she likes it!

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