My blog/day ratio has been very low. I must amend this. Tomorrow (well today now) is my sisters 18th birthday. Now, this terrifies me just a little bit. First of all, if she's 18, then I'm not any more. I'm 21 next month, and what the hell am I doing with my life? I really don't know where I am aiming, and I don't have the constant in my life that I assumed I would by this point. I need some kind of guidance as to where I'm going. The worst part of it all is that I am being emotionally blackmailed to stay at home after I finish uni, and for an indefinable time thereafter. I want to spread my wings and go somewhere. Anywhere. I just want to be somewhere different where I can meet different people and do different things and give happiness another shot. I don't see that happening around here. Maybe @jogey and the rest of whoever ends up in this band could group money with me and we could get a house somewhere together meaning that we can have a practical living solution, I can get away from here, I can have a step on the 'grown-up' ladder, and it means we'll be able to do the music thing as well.
That is probably THE most hypothetical thing I have ever said out loud, well not out loud, but you know.
I want love to find me again, I'm terribly lonely.
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About Me
- KingOfCarrotFlowers
- I am a 22 year old male, living in Leicestershire, Mathematics graduate from Leicester University. I am not the most interesting nor most boring person you will ever meet. I am neither the cruelest nor the nicest. I find social interaction much easier from here, but I hate it. Hard to read emotion. I like to read, and listen to music. I also play the bass guitar, and the acoustic guitar. I like to watch films, particularly dramas. Anything more you want to know, I am sure my email address is on the page somewhere.
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